Back into the fire

I've been out of this for so long now that I find myself dying to blog. I've been without my laptop for damn near 2 months. OMG, I know - well; retract that statement. YOU don't know. I do, several other friends of mine do know as well. I've not went through withdrawal symptoms as bad as I did several years ago.
You find me without a computer 5 years ago and I'd be dying.
My lifeboat - My mobile. God I will never convert back to a regular mobile phone ever again. I absolutely love my Droid and will never trade it for all the gold in...Atlantis. It's been my line into the world and kept me up-to-date on everything. I mean it all. Facebook, Twitter, Myspace hell even Fubar. I've done well, only thing that's not itched me hardly any at all.
World of Warcraft.
I did however cancel my account Friday evening. I find myself wanting to play but then I realize I'm bored in 20 minutes. Oh well, That's 15 bucks a month I'll be saving. Christ. I need to save. I've got mass debt to pay off.
-Anywho. I'm glad to be back on this. I'm happy. Scary to be happy that you're blogging stuff down. But, I am. I've even went as far as recording my thoughts and whatnot before bed at night on my mobile. I've got quite a bit of stuff on there I need to go through and blog down soon. That'll be at a later date when I get to feeling the need to. Right now I'm content with what is being spilled onto the palate right now.
So, I'm gonna give you guys a up to date on life as is right now and what you have all missed in the past few months.
-My brother has gotten a car. He and my step-father went out and bought a 2010 Mazda CX7 . Tis a nice SUV. He got the church he attends to pay for the hand control so that he can drive it. Then this past tuesday he went to the DMV and took his writing and eye and driving test and passed. He is back on the road. OMFG. Nearly 6 years he's been off the road. We've been the ones to drive him everywhere. I've been with him several times riding around, getting him used to the control and how to handle this big car around. Interesting is all I can say. He's got a lot of learning still left and I fear he needs to do it alone. He does scare me sometimes. But, I realize that if we wreck or cause someone else to wreck then...it was bound to happen sooner or later. He is very heavy 'handed' ...with this hand control he is driving one hand on the steering wheel and one hand on this control stick that you press forward for the brakes and press down for the gas. It's interesting. I've driven like it before and let me tell you. It was very hard for me to do for the first few times till I had to treat my hands like my feet and switched sensory perception like he has had to learn over the past years since becoming a paraplegic. My mom on the other side of this all is a fucking total wreck and will not watch him drive. She rode in the back seat one time and only time. She went into screaming fit when he was turning onto a road and was on the otherside because he over corrected and a 18-Wheeler was coming around the corner. I had to yell at her to calm down before she makes him more nervous. He drives just like he use to when his legs were working. He rides the white line...HORRIBLY. He's ran off the road several times. Nearly hit a car the other night. Has almost hit my car and my neighbors car because there isn't much room for him to turn here in the parking lot when he's leaving.
...It's just....gonna take a lot of time and patience. Which I've got. But, my mom and step dad doesn't.
-Other news.
Personal wise. I've really not got much to report. I had a run in with a friend from my college years back in February and we were gonna try and make a run for things later on down the road. But, when you haven't been around each other in nearly 6 years. Things change in life. As do people and I've changed immensely and so has she. That's where that'll stay. Work related stuff. Well, it's picked up A LOT. Christ has it ever. But, that's job security in a world that doesn't have much of that. I do need to put up that I find myself looking deeper into the world though and seeing that the sands of time (((this is totally my mindset and not of anyone else' and if it offends you or if you have an opinion on this matter. Well, opinions are like assholes, everyone's got one.))) are running way low and it truly freaks me out. I wanna live life more but, everyday I'm held back by my own mind and my life as it is.
Oh well. >.>
That's the way the cookie crumbles.
I'm starting to run low on thoughts and it's later than I thought and I need to be in bed reading some before I crash out because I have been making it a habit of being in bed before midnight and I've been doing great for the past month.
Go me. I know this!
Ok, well I will bow out and hope you guys enjoy your week ahead..the few that read this malarkey

-Marion OUT