This could be

Something I'm just thinking up. Whatever the reason is. I feel like all I'm doing is staring down these social networking sites that I'm apart of. Actually looking like a lost puppy waiting on someone to at least give an acknowledgment that I'm alive. I think this stems back from my days of IRC and Yahoo Chat. I'm use to total interaction with others. All the time. Now, I feel so distant from it, I feel like there is nothing there anymore.

Last night was one of my highlights of playing World of Warcraft. For 3 hours, I played. Long time to some. But, when you're running around with friends, People who you actually know by their real names and not their toons name. You feel more connected per-say. After finishing up a battleground. My friend Sam invited me to join up with him and I'm taking a long winded shot because I know this is pretty much accurate in saying his girlfriend was tagging along as well, Then another friend of ours, She's random enough as is. Well after looking and running around we basically just wound up standing around doing nothing but talking. Mostly about how Alicia and Sams sex life and tips and tricks and other reallly realllllly random things about fetishes and shit like that. By the time I was so sleepy I couldn't hold my head up, I had to wipe the tears from my face several times because I was laughing so hard.
It's not hard to find people to talk to online when you actually listen to them and learn about them. Listening is key too. Guess that's why I live online most the time. Because I'm more of myself than I am outside of it. That could be a big vice for me. I'm not obsessed over being online but, I feel more keep in the loop if I can read and look into what others are doing. This and that.
Odd. I know.
I think I'm gonna have to go into a mindset over my accounts on Facebook, Myspace, Twitter, Fubar and possibly look into deleting them. I'm not finding uses for them anymore and they, like the world because dull after so long when you burn yourself out on it.

New Idea.

Since I'm a fan of Warcraft so much and a few others think that video game is all I care about in the world and not them, I given a bit of thought about something. Something that would be a permanent reminder of my obsession with it.
So what better permanent way to remind yourself of an obsession?

Tattoo it onto your body. That's how.
lol
I've contemplated on several tattoos over the years directed at my love of warcraft. This one though struck me so hard it could have knocked me off my feet.
If some of you know that my past which isn't pretty by no means know that I have a few scars to bear on my arm from the past. Well, It got me thinking. I'm sure none of you know the lore behind what I'm about to say and I will try to give you a cliffs notes version of it afterwards. But, now. Behold my idea. lol
my left upper arm I'm wanting to get the runeblade Frostmourn tattoo'd there. I'm talking full scale, all of it.
Then above it and below it the lines from the game that were inscripted upon it's icy tomb. Just as the blade rends flesh, so must power scar the spirit."
Why ask? well reminds me of what I've done, blades too once rend my flesh, my power to over come it scarred my spirit too, still to this day.
That's why I want it there because it'll over lap the scars and I think it's just a awesome thing to have.
I'm sure the zero amount of you that read this will be like wtf man. wtf. Shut up. My body. It's not what you will or would want. Me. Me me me me me. So without further adieu. this is the sword i'm wanting.
Frostmourn

inside the etches of the sword I want them done in a darken shade of blue because in the game it looks like
This
So, what you think?
I'm loving it. Can't wait till tax season arrives because this will be my birthday present to myself in 2010.

You're sure?

I'm never sure about my cleaning skills. Which suck so bad.
I hate dishes and laundry. I really do.
If there comes a time I can get my own place. I'm getting a fucking dishwasher, I don't care who says what. I would rather just shove them in there and let a machine clean them then I can just reuse them right out of the washer..poof..that or plastic..but I go through those things way too flippin quick.
As for laundry. pft. i'll throw them in the washer and dryer and all, but once they are done drying. Meh. I might just throw them on the chair and just get whatever I want for the day.



Yes this is really me on a normalcy like day because it's the truth. Deal with it.
Ugh, I dont even wanna think about moving this furniture either. It's not been moved since Adrienne and Jasmin moved it for me when I came home one evening back in February.
..oi...

Debates

I'm just in a funk lately. I don't see the end of it. I don't care to see the end of it. I just feel like if I were alone, not completely dead alone but, alone for a few days. Sort out my mind, I might be able to make it back to saneville.
Too. I think this wanting to be alone is going to kill a lot of people too. I'm seeing a lot of my friends gettin really pissed off at me because i'm not talking to them as much and it's really scratching me the wrong way and I fear either they had just lay off or either I just delete them from me. mind, soul, all.
So, I'm also thinking about cutting off myself from my computer all together for the remainder of the weekend. Just break away from it.
I'm having a bit of a time with dealing on social networking sites anyways at the moment because I cleaned off a lot of my list on facebook which now leaves me with the few that I actually talk to and whatnot but also leaves me with myspace, twitter, fubar. which no one EVER talks to me via those sites anymore..
I'm almost debating on killing my twitter account because I don't use it hardly anymore. My myspace profile is crap because none of the people I message on there anymore will talk back or at least leave a comment. Fubar is turning completely towards nothing but money hungry whores on there. So, Why am I whining about it?. Well, all the people that clam 'loyalty' to any and all friends are actually assclowns who could care less about what the next one says. Then there are others and yes this is directed via twitter and facebook, etc, etc. Most people I see when posting on my news feed are talking about 'oh i'm wasted this weekend'. or..'Oh the fabulous ways of God' .. I've got nothing against either posting it. But, when half is talking about getting wasted or getting fucked *literally and emotionally* then the other half does nothing but thanks this and that for whatever, I guess I'm just one of these who feels like the world of social networking is more less about 'whatever you want' , which yes those two catagories fall under that title. Guess that's why I deleted about 3/4 of those ppl on my sites, cept fubar. Most the ppl that are my friend on there only talk to the 'elite' of that site and ppl who spend money on them, not fake money mind you. actually hard earned, bill paying, m-o-n-e-y ...shits nuts man. I've never done it nor will I. So. therefor
...
I'm feeling the urge to even cancel my World of Warcraft account because I'm losing the fun in it. Months ago Casey, Sammy and I were to start back up playing. Well I did. I even got my toon to 80 before any of them did. Now neither one is on anymore due to underlying reasons with computers so..i'm alone there. Paying 15 bucks a month for a game that is losing fun to me. That'll be shut down before too long.

I think it is time to break away from this crap life on the internet. I only got 2 really friends that are outside of here that aren't blood related that I care to talk to on a good day. Family wise - I have to be in a good mood to speak up about stuff with them and as is right now I'm not much for talking to them.

And just like, the movies..

Checked out the seconds installment of the Twilight Saga this past weekend. Actually got my first taste of it online. I came home from a long evening full of eventful memories I'll hold dearly and some were caught on film, Check my youtube account right here As usual, Whenever I hold the key to making a new flick I'll be sure to upload it right there so you all can enjoy the awesomesauce that is me. Being I've got this new killer phone that allows me to do so right at my fingertips.. booya. I'm on it like stink.
So oneward of my critique of New Moon. It was pretty good. More accurate towards the book than what Twilight was. Could have spanned a bit more on certain areas, But we can't have all the cake right now. So, I was rather content with it and pleased nevertheless.

Figured I would throw this out here.
I'm feeling fidgety at the moment and now have the feeling that blogging isn't hitting on much.
Be back with a later blog on how the Thanksgiving holiday is full of win.

Versed in the fine arts of life.

One would think that even after wards you could just do as you want, not truuueeee.
There's steps, rules, ways, observations to be made on how 'you' do things.
I've read..somewhere..some place..something along the lines that you define your true character and place in life by your actions, or some hooboo like that. If true then my true character is so squishy on the inside with such a tough exterior like shell that can only be pierced by the pity of life.
heh, True that.
Maybe I should just turn that around. Squishy all the way around.
I was asked today if living alone was lonely. mmmm..not really, I replied. I actually like it. Although some nights are lonely more so than others. I've managed. I lived on my 'own' in a technical sense for a year or so at my dads place while he was out of town. Then moved here years later. Silence is golden some nights after dealing with all kinds of crap during the day at work, to come in, sit down and just relax is such a great thing. But, then as the night sets in you just feeling like that weight of your personal life comes creeping through the cracks and crevices then you try to deal with that the best way you're able to - then BAM - morning, you drop your personal life at the door as you close behind you.
Turn on the face and head on
Rine
and
repeat.
that's all I can throw out.