Is it really?

The fact that I noticed this week I've been kinda grouchy and irritable doesn't mean to the vast 25% of you that I want to rip your skulls off and proceed to defecate down your throat. So with that lets recap why I've been such in a crab ass mood lately.
-Work - Well, what is there really to say about it. I've been here nearly 6 years. i've seen and put up with the most extreme stuff, Guess it's why I don't handle stress so well anymore. Most would agree that I need to be medicated again. I'll go ahead and tell you nicely to go fuck yourself. Last time I was ever medicated I didn't know who I was and to be honest I lost a lot of things due to that. This week was just terrible in the stress department because of having to pull overtime and do this and do that and try to carry a load that even most wouldn't dare touch because it would be so overwhelming to them, I tried, I failed. I had others to become bitchy with me, so in doing so I turned around and became a total asshat back at them for being bitchy towards me, Why be bitchy when I'm trying my damnedest to make everything work and make everyone so happy.
-Sleep - I've been sleeping, but. My schedule is off. I'm not completely crashing till after 2am. I'm back up at 8:00-8:30am. No ones fault but my own. I had one cool dream this week and figured it would brighten up my week with that thought at least. Nein. It didn't instead I continued to feel like drugged on, pulled through the muck and pushed to work.
....Maybe my mind and body are telling me that it's time, Matthew. That time to pull apart the tattered and torn seams that has been bothersome for some time and to now tear them off and shed the clothing and find a place to just lay still and listen again. Not to others, but yourself. Who knows, I don't. I have certain answers that would complete a question but in order to get the end result I would have to go through the motions, I don't like going through motions much anymore. I've become a glutton for laziness.
Think after tonight I'm going to turn my cellphone off and proceed to sleep. I'll even take some meds if needed to make me crash for longer than 6 hours and make me proceed to 7-8hrs of good sleep.

Yeah, that's what I am in dire need of. That and other things pertaining to the word vacation.